Today Ivan talked about the infamous double-slit experiment to explain how predestination and free will can co-exist at the same time. I think this website explains the science of it - to the layman - well. Wave-particle duality! (H2 physics) Principle of Complementarity! (H3 physics)

More advanced - so-called - quantum physics can be

I think its good to illustrate how there is other dimensions or realms (heavenly realms) in the universe and etc and that God knows things in higher ways than us

Quantum Physics is a cool and mind-blowing world, but spooky as well - at least to me.

And its where science and philosophy can merge.

During JYM worship today, I felt lost. I felt chaos in my mind. And I wondered why...

After E3 (in which I felt that the holy spirit taught me deep things - just a bit, and I dont really know what), i went to have lunch as normal at st georges. During that time, i think it was small knitty gritty things which sparked bigger thoughts to infiltrate my mind.

Like, I spent the whole of friday (my grad day) with my class aft the ceremony in school and it was a nice day. It was a nicer time being with my class than I thought it would have been.

And today i was feeling outward (i think its not an accurate word) for a while and erm... hmm

No actually i think it started from this. Pls keep this to yourself. I felt that Claudia kind of "dao" me today and wondered why. Then i naturally thought, aiya its normal for ppl to be like that sometimes. Sometimes ppl dont know they are like that. Or maybe Im too sensitive. But then, at the back of my mind it was still there la, as though some part of my mind was not convinced by the saying of another part of my mind. These kind of things tend to stick to me. Stupid things...

I thought about my "innate cool self" - somewhat. Which I use sometimes, i admit, to give me assurance in my identity, to satisfy or maybe suppress my insecurity.... Sometimes, when its "combined" with what i call my "bitter self" it can become bad, a bit "show offy" (which puts ppl off), so unlike when Im afraid and come before the Lord in -what i think to be - great humility... If i have longer hair I'll look more evil right? I can feel evil too.... While eating Adeline said sth about the RJ rugby coach and that "his girlfriend also so hot one" , then "oops sorry"... (i hope i didnt write sth i shouldnt have) then this stupid thing made me think of how i think many ppl in JYM actually have bad sides of them that is nowhere to be found on church day. And that dinner I had last week with joel pang and derrick... just after that dinner I felt a bit judgemental... everyone was made beautifully and carefully by God.... I shan't talk about that here.

It may look like i thought a lot but it was just a matter of seconds of thoughts here and there.

Then it went on, especially during worship, when theres nth to distract your mind. When you come to God in truth, in honesty, in authenticity.... I didnt really know what I was thinking about... It didnt make much sense for me to feel troubled about this. "Whats going on" I asked and asked.

Did I "think too much"? How would I have stopped it anyway? It all came quite unwittingly.

Was I too sensitive? Or was I more holy that I could sense smaller sins and see the "great evil" in them? Was God trying to tell me something? Or was it merely my own ....whatever...

Weird. Sometimes I feel that God is playing with me...

That clouded my mind during sermon...

I havent been studying much these few days... haiz....

Must go all the way for A levels now!

I feel we havent fellowshipped much recently as a cell group...

looking forward to cell outing

Kenneth