heeeeeeeeeeyyyyyyyyXDDD haha. these past few weeks i've been wishing someone would post so i'd have something to read. so now it's after exams (for me XD) and i wanna post something in return.

i was reading kenneth's post from yesterday. and and i just wanna say to you, that God would NEVER play with you. nor is He this mind controlling geek who laughs evilly (is that even a word?) when you dont get something He is trying to tell you. I asked God once if He had a sense of humour. I am pretty certain He said yes, but added that he would never use it on me. so kenneth? Keep asking.

Matthew 7:7
"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.

Jeremiah 29:13
You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

Oh. AND AND ryan i had a similar experience with the phone too! I remember my parents were arguing with me in the middle of this year that band had taken up too much of my time and they wanted me to stop going for music prac and all cuz i was too busy. I was really angry at them, but - lemme tell you, they drive a REALLY good argument - and I found myself giving in. It was heartbreaking for me, because I really wanted to be able to serve God in that way, but then again He told me to obey my parents. What was i to do? It was in the car at night, and i was crying in the backseat. I prayed and prayed that God would chande their minds, but in my heart i didnt believe He could. So i replied - "fine, I'll tell claudia I cant make it." I took out my phone and typed the message. and the phone died. It died a total of three times, so i had to type the entire thing out three times, and just as I was about to send it out, my dad just asked quietly "can you leave early on friday night?"

I didnt believe God would do something like this. I thought He would side with my parents. Hey. He put them there anyway. and somehow, God has sustained me throughout this year, and it has been a very fulfilling one. everytime i am scheduled to sing on a sunday, i'm reminded of how much God has done for me, and that He truly cares about how i want to be able to serve Him in this ministry. And He's shown His love for me over and over again. To sum it up, He's Lord over everything.

Psalm 22:28
for dominion belongs to the LORD
and he rules over the nations.

including electronics.

Friday was very interesting, because my plans were cancelled at the VERY last minute. i was already out of the house and decided that "if no one wanted to go out with me, i'll just go by myself" I ended up going to west coast park to cycle. When i got there, the rental shop had been closed. So I just walked around, and ended up doing a prayer walk. I prayed about camp, that God would somehow let me go, about my results, and kinda did a short reflection on how God has been so good to me this year. Oh and ryan, i'm sorry cuz i kinda got carried away and heh, that's why i was late for music prac. >< But it was a very refreshing time with God.

I remember halfway through there was this stray cat that i wanted to pet. It stopped, stared at me with huge marble eyes like I was going to dismember it or something, and bolted for its dear life. I felt really disappointed, cuz all i wanted to do was make it happy. Then it suddenly dawned on me. How many times have i done this to God? How many times have i scrambled and hidden just because I was afraid of what God wanted to do with me? All God wants to do with us is to make us better. Sure. There'll be tough times, suffering. But if we are willing to submit into His hands, then life will be much, much better than anything else we are trying so desperately to keep away from Him.

One of my pet peeves is that I give in too easily. For example, I've kinda given up hope that i can go for jym camp, and i havent been praying all that much about it. But deep down i really wanna go, and i think it's too early to give up just yet. pray for me k? I'd appreciate it alot.

Elzaaaaaaaaaaaaaa