Maybe that intro doesn't really suit a "Hello people" like how I wanted it but oh well. Its nice. =P right?

I'm packing my bag now. Pause from posting.

Okay Im done. I'm going to blog about school. Last week was my first week back in school with my class after the June holidays. The before last week I had exams. Oh and I think I did not so bad for my Mid Year Exams. After the Cebu trip that week I thought I was going to flung my Mid Years. For a few days after Mission I was reflecting a lot and relaxing rather than chionging and mugging (I still did some work everyday though). But on thursday or friday that week (I think) I just said God I dont want to slack anymore and will study to the best of my ability, and just leave the rest to you. And I studied. And studied. And studied. And I think I did okay, Thank God. Just that for physics (my niche) I did nothing much and I got a C >.< . I havent got other results yet.

Eh, that wasnt what I wanted to talk about. I like Mr Ivan's speech in E3 last sunday. I thought both Ivan and Ryan were going to speak at E3... But anyway, it made me think, and reflect, again. I think that was what made my week good. I prayed for time in school. My last lap of school. In half a year's time it's the end of my school life. I thought I should treasure it.

I felt in communion with God this week. How I did Bible reading during quiet time was just, randomly flip pages and randomly read until something catches my eye. And I ask God to bring me to a page he wants me to read. YWAM style eh?

I read some Pslams in the end. Proverbs 14 and Psalms 34. Read it. Its good. I also read some parts of the Romans book (I read the whole book before). Indeed Romans is a chim book.

How about some food for thought?

"The simple believe in anything, but the prudent give thought to their steps." Proverbs 14:15

Put that and "Child-like Faith" together. What do we get?

"Prudence", according to Cambridge Dictionary, is about avoiding risks and uncertainties.

Well, I dont know... Faith is like being certain of the uncertain...

My class is so not united. Everyone is like, doing their own things... And I feel good portraying myself as gentle and caring and "holy" - unlike some times in school where I feel bad about what I say, my mannerism.

About how we can apply what we learnt in missions to our life here in Spore, I think there's so much we can do. Lifestyle evangelism.

Actually school was rather boring, and quiet, and slacky as well. I still feel my social insecurities and stuff. And when I go to school, I just tend to "have nothing to say to people"... I dont like CJ... Why did God put me here... T_T

On Wednesday evening I had Economics tuition. My tuition is a group tuition of 4 people and we go the the tutor's house. My tutor is a teacher from ACJC and is a Malay, Muslim. While we (2 students) were waiting for the rest to come, I was whistling. I thought no one hears my whistling you know. As in I thought no one would relate that to how I'm feeling. Well no one told me anything about it before, except that my whistling was noisy. So I was whistling as we were waiting and my tutor said "Kenneth always whistles huh, quite a happy person."

I stopped whistling. I was shocked.

Quite a happy person? Thoughts raced through my mind. Wow thats a good Christian producing good fruit eh? Am I happy? Maybe I am ya? It was like a sudden realisation. Im supposed to be depressed, down, troubled a lot. Thats how I felt. Before the mission trip when trying to write my testimony I thought, my life has so much suffering, how can I be an inspiration and encouragement to people if I were to be genuine in telling my life? I felt as if I became happy when I realised Im happy.

Then, I realise in school (this week) I also feel joyful and peaceful. And perhaps, a "latent cheerfulness". Wish it wont fade away...

And a latent enthusiasm or zeal, or maybe something else. Actually I feel I should be "provoked" to be out of my comfort zone more. Sometimes Joseph Chean pushed us ya? I think I should push myself more. I thought: This period of my life, I think its a critical learning period for me (or maybe this applies to many youths?) where God is teaching me (or us) 2 Timothy 2:22.

On friday I thought, maybe I should be more proactive and take the initiative to talk. To stand infront of the class when theres no lesson and everyone is finding something to do, and say "Hello. Morning, 2T14. Its a, been one week of school ya? First of all, I dont have any important announcement to make regarding school stuff. But Im up here because... I thought, our class is so ununited. Im sure all of us thought about this before right? Well I thought, maybe we can bond by having more class talks. Like just 1 person talks and the whole class listens and talks back. Doesnt have to be me. So a, shall I talk about myself? I went to Philippines in June holidays and although Mr Ong might have thought I went for a holiday, I didnt...... .. . ....... . .. . .. . . . . ...... I think we Singaporeans are just too reserved. I think if we become more open and just enjoy one another's company, we'll be much happier. Instead of being ranked as the 146th in Happiness Level among the countries, we can be like philippines, ranked very high up, as we learnt in GP lecture.. . . .. . .......Gracemary, why is your name gracemary, not rosemary ? See Mr Ong always calls you rosemary, because roses are better than grace, because roses represent love, and love is the greatest thing in the world. Anyway there was one girl named rosemary in Cebu, and she... . ... ................................."

I'm so not the kind of person who would do this... >.< ....yet O_O

I'm going to bathe and sleep now, so Im stopping here. Bye. Have a good week :)

Love XD

Kenneth