Umm, School has been bad for me.

I feel very sian in school and i dont really know why. I think its my social life.

I feel like Im becoming a rather different person in school now. Becoming what I was like exactly 1 year ago when I was in Band. 

Today I felt really "weary and burdened" so I exchanged my yolk with Jesus's and I felt light.

I dont wish to say much; I'll end it like that :)

Oh, I dreamt on friday night that my father passed away. I was very sad. Thinking that I could never see my father again... I kept on asking why this happpened... then I thought where he was now (in the dream). I tried to "feel what it was like to be dead". It was quite lucid. At first it felt like I'm not part of the world anymore. You can't see or talk or move. You cant even think or feel. You can't share the excitement there is in this world. Its a total silence, blankness, nothingness... 

Then after that you start to be able to feel again, in a deep way. You feel rest and peace. Absolute rest and perfect peace- as they say it. 

Was this God-planned? I wonder... 

It may just be my imagination. Well I felt God's peace before. And I know that some people who were at the brink of death and survived claimed to felt peace. 

Then I thought (in the dream), what if my father, or anyone who dies, did not feel the peace?

Extreme suffering which lasts for eternity.

btw my JC Band got Gold with honours. wohoo. 2 out of the 17 JCs got that. CJ beat RJ, VJ, TJ, SAJC, ACJC. With rather cheapskate instruments and no "gifted"(very talented) players. 

Kenneth