Someone once said; " it is not the mistakes that counts, but make every learning journey personally enriching "

Something i read in a book that said this phrase that really caught my attention. Well, someone asked me to blog about my sharing on Sunday, so it becomes a piece of information in this blog so that when you face similar problems as me you can read this post.

Well, someone also asked me why i deleted all my posts away. My answer is this. Things in life don't work by the way you speak, the way you blog. Life is much more than this, that is why it's such a long lifespan. I deleted all the post i posted is because i realised that blogging in this blog does not make me a better person, or fireproofed to mistakes. I am equally prone to making mistakes. I feel i have posted so much about things in life that i had never really experienced. This makes everything I blog become a counterfeit, something fake. When i actually experience for example real deep SIN, it is much more than just blogging or writing what i think it is. Because you see, this is how the Devil works, he gives you more pain then what you can imagine, what you can type, what you can write. My understanding of the things that i blog are only superficial. Thus, i feel if i allow readers to read that post, it is like lying to them right under their noses. I want to blog the truth, the truth so you really understand the pain, the sufferings.

On Sunday i was speaking about " Don't Give Up ". I am willing to blog this down because i truly experienced it and i understand every pain that you feel. For those that are reading this post, i just take it as you're experiencing the same thing.

During the past week, it was a big struggle for me in every area of my life. Be it spiritually or mentally. I just lost completely the focus of God in my life. I lost the sensitiveness i had with God and maybe the relationship. God was shut out of my life completely by my own actions, and the fake believe that i was "alright" with God. But all that changed when i had a conversation with Ryan.

As i said, i always had a nice talk with Ryan, although sometimes personal but it always had a right tone. But suddenly that day i just felt that i was greatly reprimanded perhaps something God wanted him to do. And i realise, that how ignorant i was to God and how much i had left it out.

THAT WAS A WAKE UP CALL

You see, early this year i felt that i was in a good relationship with God and that everything was well. I felt that i was fireproofed to sins and that it'll never come and haunt me down. But that's God's learning lesson for me. Often, we christians become complacent with our walk with God often neglecting him in one way or another. That was what exactly that attacked me.

" Fireproof doesn't mean that it'll never come, but it means that when it comes, you'll be able to withstand it "

what a really great sentence! God had sent terrible consequences upon me and i became someone like a monster. Somebody i couldn't recognize myself.. What a great opportunity this is, examinations are coming and it is a great opportunity to give an excuse to study and not come to church. So every week for the past 3 weeks I just gave reasons like "i was too busy doing work". " Oh i had many test papers to do " But all these are all excuses, excuses for me to run away from God. Brothers and sisters in Christ, don't run away from God because you can't run as fast as him. No use hiding, no use running. Every mistake, every sin, face the consequences bravely and humbly. Humble yourself under God's mighty hand and he'll live you up in due time. Know where your mistakes are, and don't make it happen again. Believe in Christ!

After my talk with Ryan, i decided to come to church on Sunday, and it was a really really great struggle. But, this JYM session was such a personal challenge and God really delivered me through it . I never felt this experience with God in a long time, it was like a Savior, an almighty God that fan flames under my dead spiritual heart. The never give up attitude he has for me no matter what I've done really just moved me to tears. It was a moment where i truly understand what it was like not to have anybody but God alone. After that, I felt rejuvenated to continue to study but at the same time being sensitive to God, having no hesitation in his decision and having no hesitation or contemplation in his love.

This was my past week with God. A struggle i've never faced.

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My encouragement to all readers is this. If you feel that you're in a moment where you can't see God, or in a moment where you know you're backsliding and losing God. Do not just ignore it and run away like me because you might not be as lucky as me to have someone draw you back. Trust in God Trust in his word in his prophecies and in his name that he'll pull you back.

Someone once said to me, you can't feel God because you're down right in the valley, but someone else can see God pulling you closer to him because he is out up high at the mountains. So please, don't give up on yourself, don't give up on God because i know this God of mine whom despite what I've did is willing to forgive me and turn me from the evil ways.

What more about you?

This God of yours is someone special. Someone who had sent you to this world to be unique and special in each way that when they see the gospel they see beyond the world, they see beyond you. They QUESTION who is the person shaping and molding your life. This is the kind of life that you're suppose to live. The kind of Life God wants you to live, and wants to mold you and shape you just like a Potter. Even when you feel out of love from God, just believe in one thing

" God Loves You "

Do not give up on yourself, do not give up on God because that is the worse consequence you can ever face.

If you don't have God, nothing seems to make sense! ( Elza Loo)

¹⁴ if my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land. (2 Chronicles 7:14)

As we approach this time frame of mission trip. Let us all have a healing within our hearts. Whatever sin, big or small live it up to God, turn from our wicked ways and humble ourselves broken before the Cross.

Your beginnings will seem humble,
so prosperous will your future be. (Job 8:7)

Sins, big or small are still sins. Repent your wicked ways and seek God only. Face the consequences of the mistakes you've made, only then you can move on with life and make sense out of your life brothers.

JunTing
-OAK

Love your God with all your heart, all your soul, and all your might. Only then can you fuel the Great commandment.

Now this is what you call, a ladder, a ladder alright. I use it to climb, up, to a higher level, a higher level alright. Hahaha!

Crisis Goodness...one of my tooth came out...possibly adult tooth cos there was a root there(or something that looks like it.)It fell out like normal:it was loose,and it shook. It hurt a little.The time and pain it took for it to fall out was like the milk tooth.Goodness...if its an adult tooth im dead...There are so many disadvntages:and pain to be eperienced.Please let it be a milk tooth....God please...e
I thank thee for whatever the result would be.Lord,I have been rather obedient since the `ps years`and though ive sinned much,forgive them:you are a great and merciful god.ill work much harder than ever before in my common tests.ill praise you in every way possible.Ill be restless to make you known.Ill obey you and respect you to the best of my ability.Lord,have mercy on me.I am your humble servant,awaiting orders.You have given me more than i could ever ask for.My life,my family,my brain,my heart,my soul,my everything.You let me grow up in a stable family.You gained me access to the school and course of my dreams.You are more than I could ever ask for.ou gave me the chance to hear about you,and believe in you,to be saved.That is my duty:let others have the right t be saved.The best gift is you dying on the cross to make up for our sins.To save us from eternal death in hell.Lord,if the loss of my permanent tooth is part of your Plan,then Lord,Let Your Will Be Done.You give and take away.But you have not and will never take away my faith:my belief in you,my most high God.You gave me this chance,lord,and i will put it to the best of use.I will not let you down,Lord.I am a sinner,deserving to be spending eternity in hell,experincing eternal death.But because of your love:your unconditional love for every person on earth;you died on the cross to take the place of our wrongdoings.To make up for our mistakes.You let us spend the rest of our eternal lives living in heaven with you,my Lord.Please,Lord.Have mercy on me.Let my fallentooth be a milk tooth.But the decision is in your hands,Lord.Your Plan is the ultimate one,and is the perfect one.
Whatever your decision,I will allways be true and loyal to you,Lord.I am your humble servant now,and forever.

Amen.
The Insane One
Alex...

God says:

My Child,

You may not know me, but I know everything about you. (Psalm 139:1)
I know when you sit down and when you rise up. (Psalm 139:2)
I am familiar with all your ways. (Psalm 139:3)
Even the very hairs on your head are numbered. (Matthew 10:29 - 31)
For you were made in my image. (Genesis 1:27)
In me you live and move and have your being. (Acts 17:28)
For you are my offspring. (Acts 17:28)
I knew you even before you were conceived. (Jeremiah 1:4 - 5)
I chose you when I planned creation. (Ephesians 1:11 - 12)
You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in my book. (Psalm 139:15 - 16)
I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live. (Acts 17:26)
You are fearfully and wonderfully made. (Psalm 139:14)
I knit you together in your mother's womb. (Psalm 139:13)
And brought you forth on the day you were born. (Psalm 71:6)
I have been misrepresented by those who don't know me. (John 8:41 - 44)
I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love. (1 John 4:16)
And it is my desire to lavish my love on you. (1 John 3:1)
Simply because you are my child and I am your Father. (1 John 3:1)
I offer you more than your earthly father ever could. (Matthew 7:11)
For I am the perfect father. (Matthew 5:48)
Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand. (James 1:17)
For I am your provider and I meet all your needs. (Matthew 6:31 - 33)
My plan for your future has always been filled with hope. (Jeremiah 29:11)
Because I love you with an everlasting love. (Jeremiah 31:3)
My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore. (Psalms 139:17 - 18)
And I rejoice over you with singing. (Zephaniah 3:17)
I will never stop doing good to you. (Jeremiah 32:40)
For you are my treasured possession. (Exodus 19:5)
I desire to establish you with all my heart and all my soul. (Jeremiah 32:41)
And I want to show you great and marvelous things. (Jeremiah 33:3)
If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me. (Deuteronomy 4:29)
Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart. (Psalm 37:4)
For it is I who gave you those desires. (Philippians 2:13)
I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine. (Ephesians 3:20)
For I am your greatest encourager. (2 Thessalonians 2:16 - 17)
I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles. (2 Corinthians 1:3 - 4)
When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you. (Psalm 34:18)
As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart. (Isaiah 40:11)
One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes. (Revelation 21:3 - 4)
And I'll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth. (Revelation 21:3 - 4)
I am your Father, and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus. (John 17:23)
For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed. (John 17:26)
He is the exact representation of my being. (Hebrews 1:3)
He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you. (Romans 8:31)
And to tell you that I am not counting your sins. (2 Corinthians 5:18 - 19)
Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled. (2 Corinthians 5:18 - 19)
His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you. (1 John 4:10)
I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love. (Romans 8:31 - 32)
If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, you receive me. (1 John 2:23)
And nothing will ever separate you from my love again. (Romans 8:38 - 39)
Come home and I'll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen. (Luke 15:7)
I have always been Father, and will always be Father. (Ephesians 3:14 - 15)
My question is… Will you be my child? (John 1:12 - 13)
I am waiting for you. (Luke 15:11 - 32)

Love, Your Dad
Almighty God

Hahaha. Raining cats and dogs.

School Hi.

hi all hey everi1!thx for the wonderful comments.:)

Argh!My parents are against my going for the mission trip,cos ive lots of other things too,even though they dont clash.Im trying.Desperately.To persuade them to let me go,as the upcoming events are not clashing and are as follows:
1.)My friend's church camp,7~9 June.
2.)Band Camp,23~24 June.
3.)Debate Competition,20,23,27,30 June.(yeah,a reserve will take my place on the 23 cos of band camp.)
4.)of cos,THE EXAMS!actually common tests but my parents treats it like the exams.
5.)[Japan]Family holiday somewhere in Japan,somewhere in November,for 1 week.
6.[Hong Kong]Band Competition+holiday.December26,2009,~January2,2010.(Ahh...this is something to look forward to.The band is going to Hong Kong.On the first 2 days,we'll slack and go HK Disneyland,etc.The next 3 days,we'll be having a camp with the HK national band.On the 6th day,its the competition.7+8th day=slack again!Woot!:)=)

My parents says that I have alot of events already,and i should not go for mission trip.
Im not a person beaten that easily,Im spraying logic at them,and they dont listen.
Hey,I believe God will be merciful and let me go!HAH!
Lets say that im not arguing with my parents,but im,hm,sparring with my parents for debate.hahahahahaha!!!
KK,another reason is safety,cos my dad thinks im not responsible.But I am,right?huh?right?right?
next,my parents think that I wont be able to survive the conditions there and I would bug u guys to go home.Sigh.Havent they realised that im not a sissy kindergarten kiddo?
Look,BB camp was alot worse.Even if its that bad,it'll be a learning experience 4 me.By now you'd have come 2 realise that im no quitter.You should have.My parents don't know that,

My dad wants us to fly SIA.But thats a minor point and its not an important criteria.

Now I would use my big fat gob to try to persuade them to let me go cos all their reasons are crap and EASILY rebutted.I'll do the rebutting.

Oh yeah,one more:where are we going?my parents dont like me going to thailand cos of riots.
thx.:)))))

The Insane One,
Alex.

Joel Pang says:

Hey wow yeah I'm really very encouraged too!

Alex hey don't give up yeah? YES there are always people wanting to know more about Jesus, so keep spreading until you find them! If you don't try, you'll never find them. Right now you're doing a fantastic job so keep it up yeah! Oh and you don't have to tell them it's a Christian thing. Just treat it as a pure carnival.

Elza wow haha I love your post; I have been thinking about the same things too, last week and this week, and how important and extremely crucial Jesus is. I mean, now I understand so much more why Jesus had to come, why He did the things He did, and why our every breath SHOULD honor Him. Unfortunately, that is not always the case. We fail and fall, but that's also where Jesus comes in and re-opens the pathway to God Himself.

A few things I've learnt last week and this week;

Ryan is feeling blessed by Elza's and Alex's wonderful posts.

Dear God I take You for granted
Someone else had to tell me that
Someone who has yet to know You

I take You for granted
Have I forgotten why You died?
I sinned, that's why

I take You for granted
I pray for your blessings
yet i do nothing to deserve them

I take You for granted
Your mercies have no end
But this doesn't mean i can sin

Have i walked off the path?
Have i crossed the line?
Have i lost sight of You?

My soul is thirsty
My heart is empty
My mind comprehends nothing

Without You
NOTHING MAKES SENSE

longing for Your special touch,
Elza.

p.s. Thanks to Alex, for reminding me that i want to see every single one of my friends in heaven. I will now get off my lazy butt and start working properly for Him. ^^

KAMIKAZE!
Elza
XD

My Post. HI all!Is everybody enjoying life?
Gosh,my coach just told us that there'll be a u14's debate next month(just after exams).Can't relax,then.Sigh.And he made us stayback and extra day a week for extra training,(training is SIAN,trust me.Its non-stop until 7+,or later.)

I asked all of my classmates if they wanted to go for the PlayMax thing.One person is from YFC,so he was a host,thus he was obviously going.
Unfortunately,most of the class were rather hostile towards it.
They were like,"what's this about?"
I then told them its a carnival,and what to expect in the carnival.
They were like"hmm...I have a funny suspicion there's a motive in this.
St Andrew's Cathedral?
Short"notes"after every performance?
This is christian-related stuff,right?"
I then said:sort of.Don't worry.Just go there and you'll have lots of fun.
They said"im not spending my holidays going to some boring sermon place.Srooy.Go find someone else."
Two people asked to look at the brochure and then crumpled it and threw it.
There were four people who showed some form of interest in the carnival.Three of them were Atheists,and another was a christian.
I asked the christian if he had any questions about God.He said he had none.
When I approached the other three,they all had the same question:is this christian-based?Guess I suck at covering that part for the time being.
Surprisingly,they said that they were comfortable with a christian-based carnival,provided there's no long sermons,and as long as it is fun.Very fun.Ok.That'll be alright.
So most likely those four people would be going.
From this,I realised that its very hard to reach out to people,even when they have no influential relegion holding them down.Most of them have no religion,but still its so hard to even catch their attention for even a short while,let alone those who are tied down to their belief in their own fantstical god.
I now realise the difficulties I would face trying to preach to the non-christians in my host group.They would probably not listen to anyone,let alone a young boy like me.They probably came only to have fun.But there are always people who actually want to know mre about Jesus.They would be the ones who would listen.They would be the ones to understand.They would be the ones who would be saved.If one such person in the group starts to convert,it would be very influencial towards the others.That is our aim.For the world to be saved.We'll start right here in Singapore.We'll begin our quest for every created,loved and perfevtly made person on this entire earth to be saved.That is God's will.He died on the cross for a reason.He did not go through all the suffering he experienced just for fun.He wanted to save us.But if he do not believe,we would not be saved.The suffering Jesus went through would be in vain.But then,how would the people be able to believe if they don't hear about Him?How would they hear about Him if we do not preach?Us,the blessed ones who were given the opportunity to be saved,are obligated to go and preach,too!We are inclined to help others be saved!
We all have a part to play here.Even a young boy like me can at least try to spread the good news.We are OBLIGATED to preach the good news and allow other people to be saved.It is our duty,not our choice.
So all of you who are sitting comfortably in your couch,loafing about,have a thought for others,and GET UP!
Oh yeah,I forgot the 'Therefore go and make diciples of all nations...'verse.But you get the idea.

The Insane One,
Alex:)

good day OAK!
haha
pretty good way to start
ok,lets start with whatever joel pang wanted me to do and that was a talk on my life.
lets just say that life is great (:
of course there will be ups and downs ):
but isn't that just life?
we have to deal with it anyway
and solve it
haha.
like a math question
get the question, find the solution and solve it
let's learn english for awhile shall we?
my life is abit of:
beautiful
dull
exciting
sad
colourful
full of laughters
hyper
that's all i can think at the moment
think i drank too much slurpee.haha.
and i want to thank junting on those life learnt lessons
you changed my(and my friends) attitude towards each tiny bit of life
i thank God for telling junting to have those experiences
and i thank junting to take the initiative and post it
oh and on behalf of my friend too.
and ryan, my name is Jia Min, not Jia min.u either put both caps or don't put at all.haha.
OK JOEL PANG, HAPPY NOW?
(oh oh,joel chua, your dogs are still so CUTE!!!)

I think..I would die for God. Haha. I think I can't bear to deny God, even if someone points a gun at me. Ok easy to say now of course..but I love God so much...

Maybe feeling emotional after doing my quiet time. but i think, no la it's more than that la. But if someone points a gun at me, and asks me if I believe in God, i wanna say 'I believe He loves you.' Ok maybe before I can say finish he shoot already HAHAHA! But i think i would die to tell someone that. I really want people to know that!!

Today i was trying to share the gospel with someone and he asked really difficult questions which i don't think i could answer satisfactorily. But at the end of the day, though i don't have all the answers, it's the real experience of walking with God that no one can take away. It's too real. The guy claims it could be just, my own intuition and all that, but, I just can't agree... I can't reason out God to you completely, I can't answer every question, I just can tell you, this relationship with God thing is real. The way he convicts my heart, the way he leads me to my knees, the way he tells me he loves me...haha crap i'm starting to tear while typing..i don't worship Him just because it's logical for me to do so. I worship Him because He stirs in me in such a real way...

Anyway just wanna end with this which i heard from somewhere, and which i told the guy today, after all his intellectual arguments against God:
"If something is not rational to the human mind, it doesn't mean it is irrational. It could be supra-rational." There are dimensions to God which are supra-rational, just beyond human comprehension, that's why he's God right? If we could define God, wouldn't that make us God. Logically, think about that.


Ryan


Oh I wanna copy and paste something from kenneth's post also:

"No moments in history deserve more quiet reflection than the hours of Jesus' suffering just before His death. The angels of heaven must have gone silent as the Lord of the universe suffered in dimensions far greater than could ever be portrayed on any big screen or reenactment."

Ok i'm gonna cry, bye. hahahaha.

GOD IS AWESOME!!! haha. haven't posted for very long, and haven't seen the blog for ages either. sorry about that.

er...yeah. after hearing me go on and on and on about band, we finally had our syf yesterday, and we got c.o.p. XD

no...we got GOLD!!!!

haha we all started hyperventilating.

anyway, this journey has been tough one for me, as i was feeling really stressed out by my work and band, and I was super tired almost everyday. Barely had enough rest to stay awake during lessons, but i feel that God really helped me pull through it all. so a big thank you to all you oakers who prayed for me and all, and i really thank God in all my remembrace of you. haha. I hope i got that right.

all i wanna do is give everything back to Him.

Without God, nothing makes sense.

Took me long enough to realise that,
Elza

OAK OAK OAK OAK! EHHHH. TUESDAY ALREADY! TWO MORE DAYS TO GO:)))) Don't you just love holy week? hahahha. Just kidding. Yeah! I don't know if anyone dreads school like i do, I'm sure some of you do! haha.

Yes, but I've been trying to be more positive! yeah, just a little encouragement, I'm sure some of you would've read Monday's daily bread devotions? Yupp, it really reminded me of something really important! That we are not alone, though you may feel as if you've nothing left, you still have God! And that is more than enough for great victory! Wow. I'm not saying my life is like super pathetic and hopeless, but really, its just so assuring to know that we have God fighting our battles for us! His promise " the battle is not yours, but God's". I'm sure many of us would've felt like oh mannn. Why must life be this way, why must our friends disappoint us, why must our parents nag, why must we be in a certain school. Why why why. Yeah, like why am i in PJ! haha. yeahh. Just an example by the way. haha. But yeah, this passage really reminded me to just turn my eyes on the Lord and put ALLLLL my hope in him, i have his reassuring promise and that's all i need.

Hebrews 12:2 "Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God".

Lets keep our focus on Jesus, don't be distracted by the things of the world, whatever tiredness, sickness, unhappiness etc etc from wherever like school, let the song "turn your eyes upon Jesus" run through your head! I really liked the quote at the end, "When all you have is God, you have all you need".

YEAH! haha. hope i didn't bore anyone. Yeah. i know its like a known thing like yeahh duh... God's always with us blah blah blah. Buttttttt! Its just something which really got me back on track, readjusting my focus and all. School's not gonna be easy for anyone! So press on and know that its a battle you ain't gonna fight alone!

LOVE, JOYCELYN JOYCELYN JOYCELYN

eh. nice picture right!

Hello OAK