Hmm, I think there is no clear high-est point this year for me. It was afterall, an eventful year- one of the most eventful in my life I think. It also depends on what a high point means.

If it means being very close to God, I think I was closest to God somewhere in July-August actually (and not operation DHL or mission trip). It was when I was experiencing healing. 

The June Church camp was like a turning point for me. From then on I did a lot of quiet time, spent a lot of time with God. And I was hurting deep inside, so perhaps I could, because of that, sense God more easily. And I looked forward to quiet time a lot. It was like meeting my best friend to share my experiences with. 

Like during my Birthday I posted on this Blog. In the morning my mother gave me a birthday card. It said, "Sweet & Endearing, We love the way you've grown -You're BEAUTIFUL in our eyes." And upon reading that I "sensed myself". Then upon reaching school I hymned "At the feet of Jesus" and it felt really good, like I just went for altar call and had myself cleansed up (copied from my Spiritual Journal). The 1st period was Student Development lesson and my Civics Tutor (form teacher) was talking in Chinese (as always) and half the class was half asleep and I was in my own fantasy world with God.

If highest point meant when changes in my character is shown (like when feel transformed/different/more Christ-like)- ehh is it awkwardly phrased? , then the highest point would be either be how I dealt with PW early september, during that awful week I had. It "stumped" one member in my PW group I believe. It was that guy whom after quarelling with (after a lot of anger and frustration built up in me- e.g. when I was not able to sleep for 1-2hours and was perspiring in my bed at night), I forgave him on the same day. I felt a great difference between my feelings (bad) and my will (good). I think he sort of subconsciously noticed it. Because a 1-2 weeks later he started praising me a lot (talking good of me "behind my back"). Then he started supporting and caring for me a lot. haha.

Oh. That was the "either". The "or" (the other high point) is during mission trip. Emceeing. I had thoughts, "This is the time Kenneth. This is it! Don't miss this chance!" I felt like I had support from everyone. A couple of times when I was losing my zeal and enthusiasm in Emceeing Siyu would say something like "Everyone lets give Kenneth encouragement!" and then people gave me encouragement. It was nice, haha. So unlike the judgemental atmosphere in my class. Pastor Henry also talked to me a bit, after the 2nd practice of the Christmas event.  I said in my previous post that I wasn't very surprised by the way I presented myself. I already knew that something was within me since Sec 4. God was transforming me from the inside out. But I still felt like I fulfilled something great. I thought I would do some shocking things in my PW Oral Presentation- but I didn't. What if I didn't do as well in Emceeing as what I did? I would be disappointed, be a bit emo, and think- I knew this would happen (don't manage to "free myself", do what I imagine I would do), just like all the other times. So a, mission trip was great 

(Digressing a bit) Actually one flaw about it was that I was concerned to much about myself I feel. Kester was my partner in the Christmas party. Aik Hong talked about him last sunday, how he wanted to tell the candy cane story to the kids. I didn't put my best effort into it. And "it" was something crucial. For a soul is worth more than the the whole world...

Er, well Band affected me a lot. 

(When I joined band I made the choice carefully. Besides praying for myself, I asked Ryan to pray for me on whether I should join it. And both of our sentiments thought, "yes, join it". I wonder, is joining band and quitting it what God wanted? Did he want me to go through so much pain that even damaged my picture of God? Or was it a consequence of a disobedience of some kind...)

April was a crazy month. I felt like a prisoner, a slave. A slave to school and not to God. 5 hours of lesson non-stop could be unbearable to the body- to my body - along with very little sleep. Mentally drained...overworked...socially "inactive"...psychologically down....and finally spiritual "damage". I think I said these a couple of times already and you guys more or less know- right?So I shan't repeat again. My post is long already.

Hmm. When thinking of what to write here, I thought I should have put some things I wrote for "Highest/High Point/s" here instead. But anyway, I don't want to change it just for the sake of...making each section more balanced?

So, I became more open because I'm in CJC perhaps. Or, God made me more open? Actually I was wondering. What do you mean what God did to my life? Everything is done by God right. As in even for bad things, although he doesn't directly do it, he allows it. So that applies to non-Christians as well. God can change non-Christian lives as well. But when we transform in Christianity it usually refers to transforming into Christ-likeness through the holy spirit. So erm, I'm not very sure in what ways the holy spirit worked in me and changed me. But I'm quite certain that I have grown in Faith (we can only grow in Faith if we have the holy spirit- right, is it- somehow i remembered that). I have grown from the stage of a spiritual baby to .. er .. someone older, a spiritual boy lol. Jesus is a spiritual great great great great great great x 10^99999^99999^99999^9999 grandfather.

Oh, one thing I didn't talk about in the blog. I wrote in the paper that I put in the unholy bin that I wanted to become less lustful. And I did become less, significantly. Lust...although its not a great problem for me, it is/was still a significant problem/struggle- though it may not seem like it- my appearance may not tell.

Well I wrote this on my new blog: