Hi!!! *big grin* lol haven't typed for VERY long so I'm trying to figure out where all the letters are again.

I don't have much time so I do super simple refections. sorry. reflections.

Highest point in 08

I'm not very sure. hmm...I think it would be camp, because that's when I really bonded with the cell and actually felt like it meant more than some out of school group. I think that after all the camps I have gone through, God has really boosted my self confidence and made me more willing to tell people about what's going on in my life (even though most of the time there's nothing) The camp last year was really refreshing and taught me alot more about my heavenly Father. I"m going to keep on learning about Him!

Lowest point in 08

I know I didn't show it but I was feeling really sad when my foot got crushed under that metal thing. My seniors had practically labelled me no hope before the concert, that I couldn't do it and all that. One of them even trashed me on her blog. (I think. indirectly of course..but still...><) so yeah, I was feeling really hurt, but since it's compulsory for everyone to perform anyway, I wanted to do my best. So I practiced like super hard. Band was like my life. I really thank God that at least I had some friends who symphathised with me and told me to just do my best. I tried very hard to exceed expectations. It was my first performance with the main band and the second last one before our conductor left (he just did).

On the hospital bed before they did the scan, I was crying and crying. Not because of the pain, but because I couldn't perform after doing so much. I kept on wondering why God had allowed that to happen. (Up to now I still do. But His timing is the best) Why couldn't I perform when I had done so much? It was like spending all your time on something and at the very end it turns around, gives who a huge slap on your face and then laughs at you. I kept asking God why. Why did you let me go through this? What did I do wrong? Give me a reason, an answer, anything at all!! I was on the verge of getting angry with God for taking away something so big from me at the very last moment.

Now as I look back I realise that it wasn't so big a matter, and somehow think back that the first few months of 2008 were so devoted to Band that I didn't have a moment to spare for God. Maybe that was why He took it away at the last minute. Maybe He wanted me to realise that He should be number one, not band, not school. He is the awesome God that wants preceedence over everything else. But though I still do not know for sure what lesson God wanted me to learn, He really took care of me when I was recovering, and I talked to Him much more after that. I learnt to rely and trust people more after that incident too, and alot of my friends were willing to help me when I wasn't that mobile.

"You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord blessed be Your name."

How God transformed my life in 08

whoops I think I covered that just now. I really grew much closer to God after the crushed foot incident. The scar on my foot's still there...though it's faint it reminds me of how God can do anything to you. maybe from now on it'll remind me that He's no. 1. Camp was life changing too. I really grew closer to God this year!!! YAY!!

Goals for 09

er I gotta make this fast.

1. think about other people more
2. Maintain steady relationship with God
3. talk to people that generally people in sch don't talk to. (they need Him too!)
4. Do my homework consistently ><
5. See God working around me
6. Have fun and turn to God in every circumstance
7. Get to know all you Oakers better!

:)
Elza the Loo ><