Hi OAK. I'm actually at church posting now. Its just after JYM and I'm at the youth office. I felt like posting during cell group today.

Sometimes in cell group I have things to share, but I just dont feel confident of it, like it will come out mundane and/or "meaningless". Not confident that I'll "express" it well. That was the 1st thing that incited me to write. 

Well I think if you listen to the sermon and open your heart to the Word of God you should have something to say. Ryan said some weeks back that all of us have "Hidden Agenda". That's actually quite related to what attracted me to church- it recognises that people have hearts; it is about Love. No one is naked since sin entered man. Genesis 3:10 says "He (Adam) answered, "I heard you in the garden, and I was afraid because I was naked; so I hid""

Ocassionally worship (as in singing) is not 'sensational' for me and today was one instance. During worship in JYM I was thinking, what's the proper way of worshipping? What if there's no grave sin or struggle that u need to confess or surrender to God? Sometimes I just remind myself of what God did in my life, of how God was good in my struggles, unconditional love that defeats feeling of unworthiness, etc. But I can't just do it all the time right. That's like manipulating my emotions, or just in a way "living in the past" when as Christians we should look forward instead of backwards. Worship shouldn't be all about feeling. God allows us to feel empty sometimes, even when we didnt do anything wrong, right? Since its God's doing, surely he must have a way for us to do the right thing. I wonder what Jesus does when he "feels empty"... (maybe not "feel empty" but not "feel emotional") 

Just commit oneself to the Lord...Dont have to feel unsatisfied ... That's what I've been telling myself...