Quiet Time is important Greetings, fellow OAKer reader. Kenneth here.

When coming home today in the MRT, after the half-Cell group dinner, Ryan asked Jason (or/and me) what we were going to do when we reached home. I thought about it when I reached home. Homework? I didn't do much on Saturday because I got carried away surfing the internet. But I decided not to do it- my Econs Case study and essay. I decided to blog here instead, again. Again I forsake Econs.

I want to blog because I haven't blogged for quite long, and my quiet time has not been good these two weeks. The fear in me seems to have subsided so I'm not pushed so much to do EVERYTHING i can that I think a perfect Christian- Christ himself, that is- would or should do.

But this is the opportunity for the devil to come and penetrate me again. I fell repeatedly. I don't want to make the same mistake. Although the fear is gone, my will still remains. I think what I'm writing shows some depth of my decision to follow Christ wholeheartedly. (to be explained)--> I have said and prayed before something like this in my heart (somewhat) when I go back to God,
"Never again will I leave you Lord. You have changed my life, my entire thinking from deep within and idea of reality, gave me true meaning to life and satisfied me with your love powerfully and profoundly. And yet there are even more abysmal doubts that could shake me, weakening my hold onto you (which I thought could not be damaged because what I experienced is divine, supernatural- transcending and could negate ALL doubts(100%)- but just after a moment of time it becomes a memory- and the holy spirit is not "richly present"). I cannot rely on memory, however deep feeling or meaning it gives me. I have to rely on the spirit. Quiet time is crucial...etc"
And after a month of saying that the feeling subsides and I stop, going back on my word. The decision and commitment I made was relatively not as deep as now, after the Church camp. I wrote this to illustrate what I was subconciously thinking about during JYM sermon. How sure is a person when he makes a covenant, e.g. to be a disciple of Christ, an authentic Christian, or in a marriage? I feel he can be very sure- his commitment will last, or otherwise, though he may feel almost the same for both situations. Based on my experience, it depends on something deep which nature I don't know.
Actually I sort of imagined myself talking to JYM about this- "Decision, this word has significance to me. God gave all of us free will...blablabla" Actually I often have a faint imagination of myself "preaching" whenever I get a small "enlightenment". I think I said that before in my 1st post in this blog. I usually forgot these things after JYM. When I try wrting in my spiritual Journal I just can't think of it- as in the full bloom of its meaning. Even if I did, I usually find it hard to express it in words. My thought chain is sensitive to other thoughts...and they don't really get retained in my mind, they get hidden deep and I have only an abstract idea of many thoughts sometimes...I'm weak in GP because of this...If I were to give a sermon in JYM, awareness of self would probably hinder me significantly. I wouldn't be able to talk like how I'm writing now...at least for now...

Hm, didn't use any Bible verse yet. Don't know what I should write. I'll just write what Ryan smsed be a week ago xD.
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus"
Philippians 4:6-7

I recited it daily- and perhaps it worked! Towards the end of the week school was okay, unlike the stressful and not nice period from 2 weeks back.

Umm, To Ryan: Thanks for being quite a good friend to me in this cell group :) haha

Its Mid-night now. I'm gonna end my post by saying that quiet time is very important. Quality quiet time. Don't just read the Bible. Analyze, reflect, dwell and practice the Word. You should pray too. Maybe worship as well, to get you more, err, dunno what word to use. I'm gonna try all that when I do quiet time. It is when quiet time is bad that negative thoughts and temptations come and overtake us.

Just thinking, should we let other people see our blog? Like our classmates?

Thanks for reading! and, Post!

Regards once again,
Kenneth