Kenneth:

Anger had a grip over me today.
After school at about 5.45pm I was waiting at the bus stop. After around 20 minutes (I check time with my handphone), one bus just zoomed past the bus stop because it was full. After another 20mins I became frustrated and bitter and gestured it. I constantly watched for the next bus. It came at about 6.35pm and I was standing on the road flagging for the bus with a worksheet in my hand, and the bus just drove past without slowing down, again. Then I went back to the bus stop and kicked the bench. I got a blue-black on my foot from it. I put on a black face. I was angry.

Even as I recalled, "In your anger do not sin" and that this is all God's doing, his perfect doing, and that he may be testing me, I still went on with that bitter attitude. When the next bus came at about 7.10pm, I finally could board it. I pushed my way into the crowded bus and gave the driver a rude look while I slammed my ez-link card on the "machine". I did all these things wittingly; I was aware that I was doing wrong.

In my anger, I clasped my hands together, shut my eyes and prayed- for a rather long time, and people could have been looking at me, especially because of my gestures. I confessed and repented. I was a bit disappointed, I thought I was growing these few weeks, putting on my shield for "the fight"... I had a thought, "our decisions define who we are".

As I reflected, I realised that this probably happened because I was feeling stressed. JC is tiring. I hate to have 5hours of lesson non-stop. I had lots of work to do, waiting for the bus wasted time...
I think we shouldn't be stressed because of school work till it makes us angry or sacrifice ANY amount of quiet time. Jesus would sacrifice work, wouldn't he? Even if it means sacrificing your O' Level exam grade...
I wanted to justify my point more but I forgot what I wanted to write and I'm busy.
I purposely spent time doing this though, somewhat as a means of showing sincerity in my apology to God...